Friday, December 19, 2008

A mistake???

I dont think so!

I have struggled about sharing this with everyone for several days. I don't know maybe I was to hurt to share. Not because of me personally but for my whole church family. I don't say family lightly. This group of people have been through thick and thin with me. They have seen, heard and felt the same pain, joy, and closeness that I have. We are close and as you know that when someone in your family hurts so do you.

If you have read any of my posts you know that my church Providence Baptist Fellowship was started after a painful split from a church that I had been a member of for ten years. I have felt everyday since the split that God took us out of there and down the road to a little town to continue his work.

This past week a Brother in Christ that we dearly love had to resign due to a moral failure. All of our lives once again have been thrown back into turmoil...The questions and gossip are flying. (Reason for the last post.) At first I sat down and questioned...God is this where we are suppose to be? Why would you let this happen? Why all the pain? Why? Why? Why?

Not long after I started asking questions, God started answering me. I don't know why I ever doubted HIM! This whole process was a humbling experience.

In the past six months I have never felt closer to God. What do I mean by closer? Well...I have never read my Bible, studied, prayed, worshipped, learned, sang, or glorified God like I have in these past six months. I don't think I ever realized that there could be a relationship like this with God. I have been a christian since I was 16 and except for a year or so I have always been in church, but I had never felt this closeness.

As I sat and studied yesterday God reminded me of many men in the Bible that led in amazing ways but also had fallen. The key word here to me was "men". Men (we) are just human. We are all capable of sin. With all this being said I know that GOD uses EVERYTHING for HIS GLORY. I have proof of that in my life and my families lives. Amen!!!!

God is so Good!

* I would like to say that this post today is totally about my thoughts on my decision to be here (PBF). I did not intend to hurt anybody's feelings. I would also like to ask for prayer for everyone that is involved.


Anonymous said...

I can only imagine that pain that the church is going through right now as a congregation and a body, but also don't forget that there are 2 families that have been forever changed, not just 1. And the pain that you are experiencing now has been a result of the past few days, but there are others who have been living in this for the past 6 months.

I do agree though, He will use this for His glory. And we can have peace in that.


Debbie said...

My heart has also been broken for your pain. You are in my prayers daily.
I pray for you to have peace and healing.